02 February 2013

Focus on Life, Week 5: Capture Our Hearts

Festus, one of the many fine ARA steeds. San Acacia, NM, Feb. 2013
So the photo-a-day thing isn't happening; between my work schedule and essential family time I just can't squeeze out enough time for daily photo taking and processing. I'll try to make a weekly post at least, just to keep myself creating, and am happy to link up with other creative people at Studio Sublime... Yesterday gave me plenty of creative opportunities and inspiration: I took the kids and my dad for a ride with Acacia Riding Adventures (ARA), an outfit in San Acacia, NM, that specializes in horseback rides for all ages and experience levels. It was AWESOME. The kids and I were tired and edgy after a long week, me after 20 straight days of non-stop working and traveling with no downtime, but after a few hours of riding Ranger, Char, and Splendor through high-desert chaparral and Rio Grande woodlands we were revived, to say the least.

I felt almost born-again, in fact, and could feel my long-buried love for all things equine finally begin to come back to life. Why long-buried? When you have something and then can't have it anymore because life intervenes and makes it impractical or takes it out of reach, I think you sometimes have to wrap it in a thick shroud and bury it somewhere to dull the keening ache. (To put it dramatically, I guess.) As a child, I lived for horses. I mucked out stalls and cleaned tack and fed and watered horses at a local stable just to be near the horses and to earn riding time. When I was 15 or so, I got too busy, and money had to go elsewhere, and then... somehow 30 years went by during which I was able to ride maybe 3 or 4 times, and having a horse or even access to one was so far out of reach that I had to let go of the desire before it burned a hole in my heart.

Embers can hold heat for far longer than we might think, fading almost to black yet reviving brightly when finally reunited with air and fuel. We'll be riding again very soon, that much I can say for sure.

6 comments:

Paula, Chief Bead Officer said...

Hi Anna, The sweet horse face drew me into your post and how wonderful that your day of riding refreshed and reminded you of the past activity that had captured your heart. Lovely post!

Unknown said...

Fantastic post, and the fact you will be sharing your long lost heart's desire with your children makes it sooooo much better.

AntiquityTravelers said...

how wonderful to reconnect with a passion that is so important to you!

Beti Horvath said...

Your post grabbed my hear. I wonder what I have buried so deep I don't know what it is?

Unknown said...

A beautiful photo and a moving post. So glad you found again what had captured your heart in the past. Horses are beautiful and I love their smell!

Skye said...

sorry I haven' commented much lately. I just wanted to say that I'm so glad you've been sharing your beautiful photography again :) I keep trying to do the 'set number of things in a set time frame' kind of challenges, but can never keep up for long >.< The one a day ones have always felt too huge for me to thnk about, but I see those who do them and just ... wow. for however long you're able to keep up with that, major kudos! And if you drop down to one a week, well that's still a drive to keep you in the flow of it :)